Regrets?

I'm not sure if I have any regrets or not. You could argue, that if you changed one tiny thing in your past, you wouldn't be where you are now. 'Now' is pretty good as it goes, so from that point of view - no regrets.
On the other hand, there are so many things I wish I had done differently... wow, so many.

I'd have stuck with my driving lessons and passed my test by now, even though I'd still be in debt for the lessons! There's no chance of my getting a car any time soon, but it would've been a nice achievement anyway.
I would've taken music at GCSE (instead of Performing Arts) and stayed in all the choirs, bands etc., that's a big one. I let myself just drift away from the music department at school, even though music is still a huge part of me. Stupid. I also feel a bit cheeky for re-joining all the choirs in the last year of school... better late than never?!
One thing I regret doing (rather than not doing) is taking Physics at A-Level. I think lots of other people made a similar mistake, in that it was easy-ish at GCSE so why not take it for A-Level? Wrong. Physics was horrible, difficult and stupid. Not a good move. I think I would've liked Philosophy and Ethics, or Film Studies maybe.

So today I spent the morning/afternoon doing not much, then I went out with my Mum to have dinner with my grandparents which was nice. Now I'm panicking about this wedding a few of us are singing at tomorrow. The wedding itself doesn't worry me, it's how to get to bloody Reigate! See, this is why I regret the driving thing, because I feel like my friends (Hannah and Laura in particular) end up driving me everywhere. Well if they're reading this, it is much appreciated. And when I'm rich and famous, I will by you each a Porshe or something! Not that my having passed my test would help without a car of my own!
Anyway, the upside of tomorrow is that I get to wear my nice dress which I haven't had an excuse to wear since May Ball!

Measure you life in love

Yesterday was really fun. I come back from Dorset and end up spending the next day with most of the same people again! Laura, Hannah, Alex, Sam and I went to a Cancer Research Relay For Life event at Ascot racecourse to sing. The people taking part literally walk round a track in relay for 24 hours... they're still going! Shame it was tipping it down, but in typical British fashion, everyone was muddling on through.

We sang 'Lean On Me', 'Mama Who Bore Me' and 'Seasons Of Love'. Sam and Alex finished off with '500 Miles'. All in all I think it went really well.

Then we walked round all the tents and stalls and I paid 50p to do the lucky dip, which I don't think I've done since I was about 11! I won a fairy's wand - score. We moved on to Starbucks for coffee, then I spend the rest of the day at Hannah's. We watched Fight Club, which I have wanted to see for absolutely ages, and I loved it. I basically want to be Helena Bonham Carter, she's amazing! Don't know what the fuss about Brad Pitt is by the way?! Too pretty. (Good actor though!)

Hannah's car wouldn't start when she dropped me home, so her Dad had to drive out and jump start the car! Then I watched an hour of Eddie Izzard til 1am, clever. Eventful day!

Dorset 12-15th July 2011

What a holiday that was - I'm back home now having spent four days with some wonderful friends in Dorset, had a brilliant time! I've never felt so British on a holiday before, we did it all. Fish and chips, a day at the seaside, card games...

My highlight was spending Wednesday night on a deserted beach in Swanage singing songs, laughing with some of my absolute favourite people and looking out at the sea and the moon thinking it was a very magic moment.

Of course, there were some wilder moments that won't be discussed publicly. Let's just say drink was a significant factor!

I'm now exhausted but very content, and looking forward to the rest of the summer! Not long til results day...